Who’s Identity are you living?

I was pretty exhausted from the night before from waking up countless times to nurse my new baby girl. My  2 years old only wanted mommy’s embrace and attention. Daddy may have been there but she wanted nothing to do with him. It was mommy mommy every minute.  My husband goes to work and well at times I was starting to resent him because he was out having adult conversations and I was at home trying to keep our home in order and food on the table by 6. Oh and I would talk to my 2-year-oldincomplete all day about what she wanted and then changed her mind every 5 minutes. I wasn’t sure when the last time I took a shower, craved another cup of coffee but knowing if I make one it may just get cold with the other cups of coffee.

I honestly felt really exhausted it felt like I as trying to achieve something more than I could handle. HAHA, I laughed out loud because 6 years ago I remember praying and wishing  I could stay home with my daughter and not go to work every day!

Yes, God finally gave me what I wanted and then it HIT me!

This last year I was seeking God to be this great mother and wife. Sure isn’t that our everyday goal and prayer. Be a good mom, don’t argue with our husbands over petty stuff, get thru it one day at a time. I was so wrong about all of this.

You see I was merely in survivor mode, Yes I asked for what we all ask for at times but truly deep inside, I wasn’t in the fullness and abundance of God’s embrace.

Colossians 2:10 And in Him you have been made COMPLETE  [achieving spiritual stature through Christ], and He is the head over all rule and authority [of every angelic and earthly power].

This scripture hit me hard! Oh my! I was totally looking to being complete as a mom and wife and everything else that had a label on it for my satisfaction. If I was a good mom then pride was there, so I was feeding into my flesh. If I was a good wife then why would my husband Not love me, I was looking to him for true love and satisfaction.  If I was a good friend then I should be popular and have many friends, Again it was ALL ABOUT ME! and if I had all of this then I would be made complete! WRONG!!!!!

I mean the cycle just kept replaying in my head, no wonder why I was there EXHAUSTED!!!!! I was NEVER going to be made complete like this!

I was running after all these labels that would NEVER be up to my standards in any shape of form.

Oh, my!

How did I allow this to happen? I knew who God was I knew what I needed to do to be filled up! but what I wasn’t allowing myself to do was allow the word to pierce my heart, make me renewed time after time, let the burden be taken from me. I didn’t allow it to be the very medicine I needed in the times of pride, popularity, or lust.  I was so full of myself.((Yes I said it, I was so selfish!) 

MATTHEW 11:28-29  “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavily burdened [by religious rituals that provide no peace], and I will give you rest [refreshing your souls with salvation]. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me [following Me as My disciple], for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest (renewal, blessed quiet) for your souls.

Ah yes, there it is, I was following MY standards and not HIS peace. I didn’t need anything or anyone to make me complete. 

Message after message from our Pastor, devotionals, and my time with God, this was all revealed. It was like one thing after another confirmation was given.

I was heavily burdened, I was not COMPLETE in him and in him ALONE. My identity was NOT in Christ. My identity was in the everyday labels and it was draining me!

Wow.

All in all. I was grateful I was lying there unsure.

So my question and request to you today, reading is, what identity have you been so wrapped in? What identity have you allowed to rule over your life? Who are you?

Oh, my beloved, there is totally a solution and answer, Jesus! He will be the only one to set you free and allow you to understand who you REALLY are in him and ONLY in him.

The rest is simply frosting on the cake! Happy Tuesday!

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